Just Call Me To Do List Tami

I am a task master, I often race through life checking off my to do list... by doing that I become almost robotic, going through each task... never finding joy in the journey.

I wake up each day with a to do list in my head that is in no way possible to complete... But I try... I would to like to tell you that my to do list is filled with important stuff for God's Kingdom... sure that stuff is there but its mostly filled with silly stuff that truly doesn't matter... sure it is necessary to do laundry, grocery shop, clean, cook for the family etc.... but does it all HAVE to get done today? With Martha Stewart perfection?

I always start out my day planning time with God... but He ends up on the bottom of my to do list and I squeeze Him in when I am too tired to really open myself up to what He may be trying to show me. I certainly have good intentions... But my to do list is always screaming in my head and I think to myself... well if I could just get this done or that done THEN I can really sit down and have some quality time with God and I won't have to worry about my to do list. But you know what? That just doesn't work.... I need quality time with God and He needs quality time with me.

I know why I let the to do list take center stage in my life... I like to feel that I have accomplished something. If I clean the house, I can stand back and say YEAH I did it... I can see the difference I have made that moment. Time with God and time making a Kingdom difference may not always be that visible immediately... but you know what I just realized? If I practice patience (something else I struggle with) I will eventually be able to see that I have done something worthwhile.... and that feeling will be wayyyyyyyyy better than the feeling I get after cleaning the house.

I'm going to be making God my top priority every day... I am human... so I don't know if I will be able to accomplish it EVERY day... but I'm going to add it to the list of my daily prayers... That I not get lost in the little mundane chores in my life and forget to take the time to connect with God.